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Appreciate

Nat and her friends had planned something really nice for her friend's birthday.. and tomorrow is the day! she can't wait for it.. she hopes her friend likes it.. as they had put a lot of effort in it.. =] but~ they are going to have a pot luck! and Nat doesn't know what she should bring for tomorrow.. =( ahhh~ never mind. there's always ups and down in our lives.. tomorrow would be an up she hopes.. =] the down side of her is, sadly, friends.. she is still in this fear.. it's like.. she's a volcano or something.. should she like, erupt it or swallow back the lava?? =.=' ignore me crapping.. but, one thing that made Nat sad is that, she's afraid.. know what is she afraid of....? she's afraid of Rainie.. Nat really treasure this friendship with Rainie.. but another thing is.. Rainie is like.. not being herself or something.. Nat herself is confused.. =( i am worry about Nat.. she's confused and scared and everything.. doesn't know what to do.. sigh-ness.. another thing is, influence.. is Rainie influencing Phoebe and Carrie? Nat noticed that Phoebe seems to be a little different.. don't know how different.. she seriously don't know.. but then again, as i said.. she's really sad and afraid.. maybe she is too weak.. too weak to loose a friend. a valuable one.. the one she appreciate.. running away from the reality is only temporary.. she needs to face it bravely.. so now, the only way is either sound out for her friend's own good, or, let it be the way it is.. and see how's everything.. she can sense something.. something will happen.. some thing~ BAD.

page 2-appreciate
being yourself is what makes u a powerful magnet
grasp whatever is in your hands tightly
don't cry because u loose it, smile because it happened
better late than sorry
p.s- some quotes are self-made..=D

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page 1~drama
there's been a lot of drama going on here and there. no one is to be blame.. it's how everyone around want to take an actual day to speak out everything that is wrong.. could it be Natalie? well.. that's a question to be consider.. she knows if she does this, then she shall be the hatred one.. but who cares right?? Natalie doesn't give it a damn. know why? cos she's tired and sick of these whispering and eyes contact and etc etc~
moreover, she knew that if she is to plan an outing, she knew that some of them wouldn't wanna go..plus, even if they go, one gang here and one gang there.. scattered everywhere.. that's for sure.. no doubt.. so what can she do to save everything?? she wants some advice that would hurt no one's feeling, won't mess up everything, and hopes someone she can count on face it with her as this is not easy.. help her! she is just like all of us.. a mortal with soul and emotions and a fragile heart.. would anyone care to leave a comment so that we can all help to save this win-win situation?? tell her what to do! she is helpless now.. the bricks in her walls behind her always supporting her is getting lesser and lesser day by day.. she almost tumble.. so can anyone please tell her if she should say everything out and tell her beloved friends that what is wrong with her or them? or both? don't keep anymore...!
or should she keeps quiet and let everything go the way it's been always? she is confused.. oh yes she is.. u don't know.. u just don't.

page 1-friendship
ignorance is bliss
action speaks louder than words

jerk

i felt so bad.. i am a real jerk. seriously.. i let go my anger on him.. its not really angry but.. sigh~ i don't know whats wrong with me.. and i told I-Lyn to help me.. =] thanks girl.. make sure you do it tomorrow.. heh..

CHRISTINA AGUILERA-HURT

Seems like it was yesterday
 When I saw your face
 You told me how proud you were,
 But I walked away
 If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
 I would take the pain away
 Thank you for all you've done
 Forgive all your mistakes
 There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
 But I know you won't be there
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside
 But I won't admit
 Sometimes I just wanna hide
 'Cause it's you I miss
 And it's so hard to say goodbye
 When it comes to this, ooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
 Are you looking down upon me?
 Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back 
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
 For everything I just couldn't do
 And I've hurt myself, oh
If I had just one more day
 I would tell you how much that I've missed you
 Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
 It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
 And I've hurt myself..
 By hurting you

i fake a smile so he won't see.....

unrevealed

its is impossible for me to find someone like you again.. no matter what you think, but if i ever fall in love again, i swore the feeling wouldn't be the same like how i felt for you.. i typed a whole long post but due to some error its all gone.. ahhh.. stupid post.. never mind.. here's a short one.. i guess its ok too.. hmmm~

when you smile, my world is lit again.

borderland

i cant believe i am actually watching movies when exams is like, four days time..? hmm~ i've been a bad girl i know.. =( this film called 'borderland' is really.. *speechless* its about this drug dealers who's trying to smuggle drugs to the northern side.. he praised the Nganga(i think) and sacrifices people to pass the cops.. they'll be hallucinate; something like that.. and then smuggle the druge to the northern side.. this show takes place in Spain.. they chop off human body parts alive.. did i mention they even chop the head and they likes it even more if the poor guy shout??? this is ridiculous isn't it?? they need to be teach! they're born with this type of environment.. somebody has got to do something about it.. its real life story btw.. i felt so sick now.. tataz

and before i go, i'm crying again.. i know.. i should take whatever that is coming.. but i really can't take it.. i tried.. i really do.. when i opens and see it,there goes my tears.. . . . . . . . . .

exams.. =(

yeahh.. exams are coming soonnn.. sad isn't it? how i wish it could end faster! =( and i still have reports to write, folios to do, homework to be done, etc.. this is a tough year for everyone i must agree.. seeing everyone's life is so hectic and down and complicated..everyday.. happy moments are just getting lesser and lesser.. sighness.. holidays.. faster comee.. but then again.. not much of fun also la i guess.. to me, holidays nowadays is something normal for me.. nothing to be happy about or excited about.. =( my brain's getting more and more confused nowadays.. he's tensed up too i know... that's why i am trying to avoid bothering him so much.. but will it affect anything between us? only God knows i guess.. sigh.. things don't always go the way we want them to be i guess.. if we're meant to be.. then whatever is happening now or whatever he is thinking now won't affect us.. =] just wished and prayed to God that he is blessed with great health and may happiness will always stay with him..bless my fellow friends too.. taking exams.. haihs.. not much time to study and i can still sit here and blog.. keng? xD

-afraid to loose u
-wake up and face reality
-don't be afraid and be strong
-God bless all of you
-felt so tired
-need a long rest
-need to get away from my life for a short while and clear my mind
-need some air; suffocated
-mind is all tangled up
-you would be happy always
-knowing what is on your mind
-everyone would be happy
-war stops
-etc etc...


我爱你 xing ni bu yao li kai.. teng wo.. cos wo hui teng ni te.. =] <3

hyper! x p

today i felt like blogging.. its only 6.46pm and i am here sitting in front of the computer not getting my homework done but well, blogging.. haha.. i have so many things to say! lol. i felt i don't really blog about myself lately..well, practically not my problems or anything.. just that i don't want some people to feel hurt after reading my post.. but what is my main purpose of blogging?? is to get update with my life right? so why care what others' may think.. i don't backstab. if anybody do feel i do.. then go ahead and tell me.. i think i can take it.. =]
ahhh.. so fast.. another month passed..its gonna be the 25th again.. <3
i know alerize.. u love it when i put <3 right? xD <3 <3 <3 ^^
i guess i will blog again tonight about my life more kua.. maybe next time.. see my mood ..=] chaoz