ahhh.. it's been 10 days since i updated my blog.. what's up with me these days? sigh~ whatever it is, all i can say is, year 2008 is the worst year for me.. as far as i lived though. a lot of things happened.. i think i'd like to keep them unrevealed. i mean, no point of me pointing it out le.. it won't make differences anyway.. maybe things would be worse.. yeah, as how i'd expected it would be.. so, be it.


i am really tired le.. tired, exhausted of things and incident these days.. too much to write.. and lazy and no point of me doing it.
lalala~
all i can do now is, go on my day like any other day.. be miserable.. keep quiet and be patient whenever something happened to me that can stab me to death.. i know i am crapping, again. gah, whatever.


family: looks ok. but not very ok
friends: looks ok but not ok
love: complicated
money: pokai
studies: drain
brain: tangled
emotions: empty

birthday

yesterday i had fun. =] thanks to all my beloved friends for the presents u guys gave me... it's awesome man! i love all of it.. i seriously do.. ^^
and the card.. =D i love it so so much.. thanks guys.. u guys always have wonderful surprises.. =]
u people did made an effort brighten up my day.. and it turned out to be well..gah, can't write long already.. gotta go catch up with my work.. =] hugs.
i try to post some pictures of it.. but, my phone's camera damn lag.. so, haha.. and i don't own a camera.. well, i'll see what i can do.. tata!

i need to be more realistic.. i need to be tougher.. God help! who else should i seek? i can't think of a single mortal! gosh i am so doomed.. i need to calm down for around half a year.. stay cool.. i am thinking positively.. but i am afraid to face it.. what if it's the wrong answer given ? what will i do? i could die i swear.. i am afraid.. to face it.

tag

6 things I'm passionate about
-the
-things
-that
-i
-love
-most

6 things I say too often
-i love u
-shit la
-oh fuck
-omg really ar?
-yes?
-no?

6books I've read recently
-i
-cant
-remember
-any
-books
-seriously

6 things I learnt for the past year
-just be yourself
-tell the person u love, that u love them
-show ur love!
-don't give up hope
-treat people nice if u want to be treated the same way.
-be humble!

I Tag..
-phing
-lyn
-cyn
-joalin
-and
-you

band comp 2008

went to the stadium today.. with jing,and her *ahem*, mei yen, su jen, guat phing and ken min.. he was there too.. =] he looks cuter and cuter every time i see him.,O.o haha~! pardon me.. =p
the comp was awesome! jit sin got first as usual.. second was chung ling butterworth.. third was our school! SGGS! haha! happy! =p well, at least this year our school maintain right.. last year and this year got third placing.. hehehe.. will post the pictures soon.. =]

i felt so proud of myself today.. know why? 'cos... whole night I've been thinking.. hey girl, why should you make yourself so miserable huh? just because other girls talk to him and you're so sensitive over it.. you should be ashamed of yourself.. remember how u always say those chinese ed people being so self-centered and paranoid etc? and now u yourself being like this. tsk tsk... & & after much thoughts, I now am ok with it.. just some chit-chat only mer.. can't kill me right? =]
some more it's his classmates and close friends.. so it's ok.. and some of them even have bf already.. ahhh~ I think too much sometimes.. hope that the changes I've made can give us hope.. =] nothing is impossible right? =] be like Jing, she's in cloud 9 already.. she can't seems to stop smiling.. =D
good for her.. =] and be like Pei Ying, no worries.. hmm~ nope, or should i say be like Shannon? he said sometimes we ourselves make things complicated.. perhaps we should let some things be more, casual? basically, in short, don't think too much.. like I said, our brain is really something.. it can control your whole mind set about something.. so just relax.. don't pressure it too much sometimes.. =] I must learn to be less sensitive about things.. maybe if I have this thoughts much earlier, things wouldn't be like this......... sigh~ I tell myself, it's ok le.. now that I've realised it, it's never too late to change =] as the saying goes, better late than never right ? =]
and yeah, I miss him terribly.. I really do.. and I don't see anything wrong with it.. so just be it.. I miss him.. =] I totally utterly miss him. =D so what? don't be afraid to say it out.. be proud to let people know.. I have feelings, u have feelings, so does everyone! =]

well.. kl wasn't that fun.. i regretted i went.. never mind de lar.. came back also already.. sigh~ felt so empty.. real miserable.. but why? i myself don't even know what the heck is wrong with me.. then how to help myself? i hate myself.. more and more each day.. damn it.