suddenly had a flashback. a thought that happened last year.
i wonder why this could happen. i try to tell myself it's not true at all.. i hope..
but my mind keep flashing back to the time where i saw it. and everytime i do, it's so hurtful.. i try not to believe it's true. but how could i? i mean, i SAW it with my own eyes k? if someone else would have told me, then, at least i can still accept it. accept the fact that i might be troublesome to u guys. so now, i try to remind myself, hey, no, don't say it, dont ask, everything, just put a damn smile on ur face, and make sure, it is not a forceful one. make sure, it doesn't seem forceful though my heart knows it is. argh! God bless me with all the strength and courage in me please. i hope...i really hope...that i would be a good mask.. not to leak a single expression. not a tiny bit. i still can't believe my eyes. this can't be true. this can't be you. this can't BE!

updates!
sorry Eunice and all.. i know.. it's been super long since i last updated xD
so.. this should be a very long post right since i did not update for so long.. but sadly.. it's just a short one.. due to lacking of time here.. and tomorrow i'm going out. so yeah.. year 2009 is here! but um, i'm not really excited like the spirit i have for christmas last year.. ok, no more sad stuff la for today's post.. =]
school and everything is okk i guess.. everyone is healthy.. but dont know if they're happy.. only God and themselves will know.
anyways..chinese new year is coming! 'ang ang' de my grand's house.. haha.. she really put in lots of effort to decorate her house every chinese new year.. made lots of cookies and all too.. some for small business and some for ourselves.. some she'll give to closer friends.
just went to gurney yesterday with a friend of mine.. bought wrappers for textbooks and stationary.. saw Michelle with her parents.. my friend saw countless person =.='
like so popular de.. aherm. tomorrow will go for a birthday outing with my friend. watched 'Bedtime Stories'. star Adam Sandler. so u can expect how nice is the show right? =]
wanted to watch 'Australia' too..star Nicole Kidman and some guy which i dont know his name. but then it's a romance show and i want to watch with someone but that someone watch with someone's friends already. hmp. oh well.. people! watch Bedtime Stories. niceee =]
my back is aching now..ahh, so chao!