Part 1

i should be thankful that i am still alive, still have a shelter, still have good food and nice clothes to wear. i should be thankful i have fine body parts, a cell phone to use, a computer and a tv to entertain me. i should be thankful that i am not an orphan, or simply a person which has only few months to live. i should be thankful that i have emotions. i should be thankful that have my friends there for me. i should be thankful me. i should be thankful that i am able to write, to do so m i still have people to celebrate my birthdays withany things other people in this world cannot do. i should be thankful that i was blessed with a family, friends and people in my life. i should be thankful that i am not a person u will forget after meeting me yesterday. i should be thankful that there are still people who cares for me.. LOVES me.. concern about me. etc... i am sorry that i have negative thoughts all this while. but i never blame myself for thinking this way. know why? that is because, when a person is lonely, has got nothing to do, has gone through failures, and i mean real bad ones, could really really lose their self-confidence... so whenever u see someone having their bad times, please don't be like my mom who will surely say how stupid they are and etc.. lifes today cannot be compared with lifes yesterdays..that's because in different eras, we'll face different difficulties.. so to people who likes to say things like, u know ar, u all are so lucky nowadays, last time ar, we use to go through tougher times, worse LIFE than you are today.
take back your words. live life realistically please. as there are lots of things that people will go through..tougher than even back then.. though your times might be less fortunate, less luxury, but think again, the more luxury we are, the more competition, the more envy, the more whatsoever reasons.. and also, the 'kiasu' [scared lose]-direct translation from hokkien-we are.. if u people don't believe me, go and see georgians' magazine year 2007. they even do research on how kiasu we georgians are.. and boy, u will know when u see those answers they gave.. their ratings are, 10/10 mostly.. haha.. what to do...? we have to have this spirit in our blood.. or else, just get married and stop studying, don't need such high aimings in life anymore.. haha.. that's what my mom always says.... but its true though.. =]

Part 2

a part of me was thinking, hey, u're such a loser u know?
yes i know and i admit i am.. and how should i overcome this? avoiding my not-so-bright-self with others.. not mixing with people that i cared for? etc etc.. i am very as in VERY negative type of person....sigh..so, what should i be? a girl to always avoid people? i don't know...i am still thinking..trying to make decisions.. a new resolution for my form 5.. all i need is some courage from people around me.. but how are they gonna do it? i need some actions, some advice, some some words filled with confident for me to stay upstraight again..i am now like a wilting plant.. so someone, anyone, please pour down some water to moisture my almost dying body? just some drops will do.. just some dropss.... i am dying of this agony.. slowly dying.. i am too young to die.. so someone please? sigh.. enlighten me.. i am very vulnerable i guess..haha!
oh, working is fun.. except the tiring part and the part where i meet RUDE customers.. they can be really really selfish, no manners at times.. gosh i hate rude people.. =.='
i want to blog more after so long.. but too bad.. my mom wants to go out already..
so til next time =]
oh yea.. i was planning to do something.. hehe.. my friend that knows about this said that i am like gonna go away to a very far place and never comes back =.='
oh well.. tyll people.. thanks for the time reading this.. buhbyes! =]


HAPPY HOLIDAYS~!
Christmas is coming!! i am SO SO excited!! haha...like a kiddo eh? =]

hehe.. still having my wonders......which part of me should i be choosing?? O.O a huge question mark