random

ahhh~ a post before i head off to KL. now is 8.40am. =] don't know why automatically wake up this morning.. and the time is only 7.30am. haha.. craze! never mind.. my body is just the same like the master.. unpredictable.. =]
well.. i had a dream again.. hmm~ i am gonna keep it to myself this time.. i don't see any point of writing it down anyway.. hmmm~ how incredible.. our brain.. hmmm..
gtg...see ya ppl~

ATTENTION!

there's this carnival coming up called 'Bon Odori'
i'm sure many of you have been to bon odori before..
so, i am selling the coupons. yes, this year, all food and beverages need coupons! =]
and how to get them? from me of course! leave me comments if u want yea..
or call my hp if u have. =]
here's the details.

PENANG-BON ODORI CARNIVAL 2008
DATE: SATURDAY 19TH JULY 2008
TIME: 6.00PM TO 11.00PM
VENUE: ESPLANADE, PENANG
COUPONS: RM20 PER BOOK. [CAN SHARE WITH FRIENDS]
LEAVE COMMENTS IN MY COMMENTS BOX. THANKS.

initiative

sometimes, people tend to have no guts to do something.. or express their feelings to someone.. whom they love for years.. et cetera.. well, why shouldn't they? i mean, it's no use keeping your feelings to yourself right? but there's still risk and circumstances to be reconsider.. not all confession will be successful though. but if u never try, u never know right?? that's the thing.. but sometimes u are not tough enough to face the challenge.. so what are we to do? we can't practically pleased everyone right?? and even if we do, we will only end up hurting ourselves unknowingly.. tell it to a trusted friend would help a lot. but some people prefer to keep it to themselves. so, it depends on the individual.. just how do we overcome the problem.. hmmm~ feelings are the things that we human cannot control. so it's really tough for everyone of us.. no matter what it is, we still need to face them and live like normal days.. sigh~ a moment ago, i was feeling down.. real down.. and we all know what is the thing or who is the one that can only cheer us up.. bring us back to life again, do we? but what if this is one of the things that can't be fulfilled? are we just gonna end up suiciding?? or or crying?? or what...? i don't know. do u?? what i know is, i am a negative thinking kind of person.. i would do stupid things at times. so it's no biggie for me to see these things.. and i had weird weird dreams.. and the dream that i dreamed has something to do with the thing i am going through.. it's so cool right?? how powerful our mind is?? it can even control u when you're asleep! they just don't let u go.. then u ended up perspiring when you're awake due to the nightmare u just had. it's not a good feeling.. it is definitely not. out of a sudden i just want to go to some place calm.. away from this crazy place.. i just want to be alone.. for a moment.. but not forever.. i never wanna be alone forever.. it's scary.. just some time alone would be great.. free from this hectic place a bit.. unlike just now, i wasn't myself.. feeling so down, useless, stupid, pathetic, a burden to people around u.. et cetera.. but then again, when u are feeling like this, usually, people, would definitely think of negative thoughts about themselves, don't they?? but think again, there's another part of u hidden inside u can be real good.. real sweet.. real decent.. =] so, when u're at ur worst, think of the wonderful things about urself.. u can feel pretty good.. i know i am just good at saying things but real bad at doing it.. well, at least try. even if i can't, u people should try.. seriously.. don't be like me.. =] that's all for now i guess.. ----

it's been a few days already since i updated my bloggie.. so where should i start?? erm~
oh yea! i went skating with I-lyn, Guat Phing, Eunice and Cynthia(supposingly) but Cynthia came real late! and then ended up four person skated only.. i was terribly hungry already so i stopped and went for breakfast in Chopper Board.. haha.. skating was Fun. hehe.. what else?? hmm~ nothing much happened already i guess.. not in the mood to blog.. lol..

pictures pictures pictures!!

I-Lyn emo-ing.. xD

look at Ze.. *ngek ngek*


aww~ i like i like i loveee this!


Pei Ying arranged this! xD she loveeee sausages.. tsk tsk~


two psychos SS and love mr doggie.. lol.. ntg better to do..xD


top view..=p


bottom view..=p


i wasn't ready for that shot. =p


I-Lyn's eyes are closed.. O.o


tired de.. wanna zzz de.. =p


i know la u two love me.. but dun have to show it til like this ma.. xD

look at Ze Yin's eyes.. scary~

aww~ nice shot eh? ^^


from Ze Yin's mom.. hehe.. thank u aunty! =]



thick eyesbags.. =(

aww~ pretty isn't it?? ^.^


i did made 3 wishes.. =]


the photographer and me! i got a hole in my teeth.. =.=



a warm group picture! =]

pictures speak more than a thousand words..

thanks you guys!

24th of May 2008 has been one of the best day of my life~! thanks to mua beloved friends... x]]
*lotsa hugss and kisses*
they threw me a surprise advance birthday party! =D
aren't they the sweetest thing?? ^^ haha~ i can't help praising these people.. =p
oh oh Ze Yin and Mei Yen took some pictures.. =] will ask them to send them to me soon so i can post them up for everyone to see.. =]
so who are the angels that attended??
obviously myself (perasan-ing) =p and then my friends ; Carmen, I-Lyn, Mei Yen, Ze Yin, Pei Ying, Jing Min and Tze Ni! wait! plus the adorable Ah Kai.. hehe.. =p
okay, it started with Pei Ying and I go to Ze Yin's house.. Carmen and I-lyn was there.. I-lyn was the earliest.. ^^ then, we started cooking.. the spaghetti was cooked already earlier.. so we cook the sauce.. i was cutting the onion and garlic.. hehe.. then Jing came.. after that was Tze Ni.. she came after tuition.. then Mei Yen came after her guitar lesson.. hehe.. then we started to eat spaghetti and drink mushroom soup.. while eating, we watched 'Seed Of Chucky' .. hehe.. everyone was so scared.. except for Jing and I-Lyn obviously.. they were like, off the lights! haha.. and Mei Yen screams her head off thanks to me scaring her.. lalala~ =p
and then here's the fun bit, I-Lyn asked me to go and see something in Ze Yin's room.. she on the computer.. and then i wanted to transfer in some songs into my phone.. so i went in.. so we waited for the com to on.. and then somebody came in and say, come watch the second cd of seed and chucky! then i said, I-Lyn wants to show me something lar.. then she said, nvm lar later only show u.. so i went outside.. it was so dark.. O_O i was like, why off the light man.. then everyone shouted happy birthday and sang the birthday song.. and yeah.. hehe.. it was so touching.. ^^ then cut the cake, eat the cake and take pictures.. hehehe.. then one by one went off.. starting with Carmen, Mei Yen, Tze Ni, Jing, I-Lyn, Pei Ying and myself sleep over in Ze Yin's house.. hehe.. it was fun.. and to Cynthia, Guat Phing, Wei Yen and Kim Mei, it's okay ler u guys can't come..Cyn is cos of her aunty.. Guat Phing is her mom don't let.. Wei Yen is in KL for debate, and Kim Mei couldn't turn up.. there's still another time right? =] our everlasting friendship will lead us to more and more parties and etc etc.. and shopping! xD and skating! =p tomorrow.. hehehe.. my mom is gonna kill me le i go out so many times.. nvm la.. hehe.. and i am not sure of tomorrow.. =p
and lastly, thank u all so much! love u all so much! and also, thanks to Ze Yin's mom! she gave me angpao.. so paiseh.. >.<>

p/s : i was too touched til i forgotten to smash u people eh pretty pretty face with CAKES.. xD

Buckcherry-Sorry

Oh I, Had alot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things werent the same
Cause everything inside, it never comes out right
and when i see you cry, it makes me wanna die

Im sorry im bad, im sorry im blue
im sorry about all the things i said to you
and i know i cant take it back

I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds
and baby the way you make my world go round
and i just wanted to say, Im sorry

This time, i think im to blame
Its harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
Cause everything inside, it never comes out right
and when i see you cry, It makes me wanna die

Im sorry im bad, im sorry im blue
im sorry about all the things i said to you
and i know i cant take it back

I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds
and baby the way you make my world go round
and i just wanted to say, Im sorry

Every single day i think about how we came all this way
the sleepless nights and the tears you cried
Its never to late to make it right, oh yeah

Im sorry im bad, im sorry im blue
im sorry about all the things i said to you
and i know i cant take it back

I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds
and baby the way you make my world go round
and i just wanted to say, Im sorry

Im sorry

sorry if u think i should apologize.. sincerely apologizing.. <3

gotong-royong

ahhh~ went to school to clean the school just now.. =( making my whole body so tired... nothing much happened today.. was kinda disappointed with something.. never mind that.. sigh~ my birthday is coming soon.. well.. not really.. what's my greatest wish of all? is everyONE to be happy ALWAYS! yes.. that's VERY VERY important. i don't want anymore tears and heart-breaking! enough! and i really really hope that i can see his precious smile =]
one of the greatest gift too.. i wonder if he remembers my birthday.. though it's not very important..it's ok ler i guess.. he is having exams too.. so i think it will be okay.. and i wanna go shopping! xD i know, i am such a shopaholic.. what to do? girls ma! =p and and i am broke! =( some more gonna go skating with I-lyn, Cynthia, Guat Phing, Eunice and Tze ni! die laaa.. mom sure nag de.. =( never mind.. let her nag la.. hehe~
oh yea~ tomorrow would be fun!!! hehe! a lot of people going to Ze's house.. so i bet it'll be really fun.. no more sad sad stuff.. =p my birthday wish is gonna achieve.. =p and and yea! forgotten about one.. no more wars and natural disaster man.. it's a real pain to hear about these kinda news k.. so please be thankful..=]

invisible

went for the wesak day progression just now.. i wasn't tired this year.. don't know why.. tonight i don't want to talk about peer.. so....... i know it's lame but i cried on wesak day.. =.='
never mind.. don't know why my tears automatically roll down my cheeks when i saw someone with someone.. lol.. i am talking nonsense again.. never mind. and i felt so invisible.. i feel like i am a little kid.. a sudden thought of myself not suit that special someone.. this is a terrible feeling.. ugh! why am i feeling like this? i hate myself seriously.. why am i being so sensitive? paranoid? emotional? bla bla bla~ and pei ying said i am not holy.. which is kinda true.. i was thinking of this question the whole time.. and my stupid brain go think that is it that someone is shy to introduce me to that someone's friends? something like that.. am i not good enough? what should i do? no wonder 360 degrees of my life is so dull.. frankly, a warm hug or a smile from a special someone can colour my dullest night. <3

i hate being too jealous sometimes..
trying hard to change.. give me some time.
...teardrops...

you

the word 'you' can mean a lot.. in fact, every word to me means a lot.. i feel weird.. haha.. like some teacher said something about some word.. some words has very big meaning or something like that.. so someone's word or actions or pictures.. anything.. can seriously influence someone, hurt someone, cheer up some one~ et cetera et cetera... so use your words wisely.. think twice before shooting something.. think twice before doing something.. and even think twice before wasting something.. it's a sin to waste..

i can't help thinking about and of you. <3

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Appreciate

Nat and her friends had planned something really nice for her friend's birthday.. and tomorrow is the day! she can't wait for it.. she hopes her friend likes it.. as they had put a lot of effort in it.. =] but~ they are going to have a pot luck! and Nat doesn't know what she should bring for tomorrow.. =( ahhh~ never mind. there's always ups and down in our lives.. tomorrow would be an up she hopes.. =] the down side of her is, sadly, friends.. she is still in this fear.. it's like.. she's a volcano or something.. should she like, erupt it or swallow back the lava?? =.=' ignore me crapping.. but, one thing that made Nat sad is that, she's afraid.. know what is she afraid of....? she's afraid of Rainie.. Nat really treasure this friendship with Rainie.. but another thing is.. Rainie is like.. not being herself or something.. Nat herself is confused.. =( i am worry about Nat.. she's confused and scared and everything.. doesn't know what to do.. sigh-ness.. another thing is, influence.. is Rainie influencing Phoebe and Carrie? Nat noticed that Phoebe seems to be a little different.. don't know how different.. she seriously don't know.. but then again, as i said.. she's really sad and afraid.. maybe she is too weak.. too weak to loose a friend. a valuable one.. the one she appreciate.. running away from the reality is only temporary.. she needs to face it bravely.. so now, the only way is either sound out for her friend's own good, or, let it be the way it is.. and see how's everything.. she can sense something.. something will happen.. some thing~ BAD.

page 2-appreciate
being yourself is what makes u a powerful magnet
grasp whatever is in your hands tightly
don't cry because u loose it, smile because it happened
better late than sorry
p.s- some quotes are self-made..=D

page 1

page 1~drama
there's been a lot of drama going on here and there. no one is to be blame.. it's how everyone around want to take an actual day to speak out everything that is wrong.. could it be Natalie? well.. that's a question to be consider.. she knows if she does this, then she shall be the hatred one.. but who cares right?? Natalie doesn't give it a damn. know why? cos she's tired and sick of these whispering and eyes contact and etc etc~
moreover, she knew that if she is to plan an outing, she knew that some of them wouldn't wanna go..plus, even if they go, one gang here and one gang there.. scattered everywhere.. that's for sure.. no doubt.. so what can she do to save everything?? she wants some advice that would hurt no one's feeling, won't mess up everything, and hopes someone she can count on face it with her as this is not easy.. help her! she is just like all of us.. a mortal with soul and emotions and a fragile heart.. would anyone care to leave a comment so that we can all help to save this win-win situation?? tell her what to do! she is helpless now.. the bricks in her walls behind her always supporting her is getting lesser and lesser day by day.. she almost tumble.. so can anyone please tell her if she should say everything out and tell her beloved friends that what is wrong with her or them? or both? don't keep anymore...!
or should she keeps quiet and let everything go the way it's been always? she is confused.. oh yes she is.. u don't know.. u just don't.

page 1-friendship
ignorance is bliss
action speaks louder than words

jerk

i felt so bad.. i am a real jerk. seriously.. i let go my anger on him.. its not really angry but.. sigh~ i don't know whats wrong with me.. and i told I-Lyn to help me.. =] thanks girl.. make sure you do it tomorrow.. heh..

CHRISTINA AGUILERA-HURT

Seems like it was yesterday
 When I saw your face
 You told me how proud you were,
 But I walked away
 If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
 I would take the pain away
 Thank you for all you've done
 Forgive all your mistakes
 There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
 But I know you won't be there
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside
 But I won't admit
 Sometimes I just wanna hide
 'Cause it's you I miss
 And it's so hard to say goodbye
 When it comes to this, ooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
 Are you looking down upon me?
 Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back 
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
 For everything I just couldn't do
 And I've hurt myself, oh
If I had just one more day
 I would tell you how much that I've missed you
 Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
 It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
 And I've hurt myself..
 By hurting you

i fake a smile so he won't see.....

unrevealed

its is impossible for me to find someone like you again.. no matter what you think, but if i ever fall in love again, i swore the feeling wouldn't be the same like how i felt for you.. i typed a whole long post but due to some error its all gone.. ahhh.. stupid post.. never mind.. here's a short one.. i guess its ok too.. hmmm~

when you smile, my world is lit again.

borderland

i cant believe i am actually watching movies when exams is like, four days time..? hmm~ i've been a bad girl i know.. =( this film called 'borderland' is really.. *speechless* its about this drug dealers who's trying to smuggle drugs to the northern side.. he praised the Nganga(i think) and sacrifices people to pass the cops.. they'll be hallucinate; something like that.. and then smuggle the druge to the northern side.. this show takes place in Spain.. they chop off human body parts alive.. did i mention they even chop the head and they likes it even more if the poor guy shout??? this is ridiculous isn't it?? they need to be teach! they're born with this type of environment.. somebody has got to do something about it.. its real life story btw.. i felt so sick now.. tataz

and before i go, i'm crying again.. i know.. i should take whatever that is coming.. but i really can't take it.. i tried.. i really do.. when i opens and see it,there goes my tears.. . . . . . . . . .