exams.. =(

yeahh.. exams are coming soonnn.. sad isn't it? how i wish it could end faster! =( and i still have reports to write, folios to do, homework to be done, etc.. this is a tough year for everyone i must agree.. seeing everyone's life is so hectic and down and complicated..everyday.. happy moments are just getting lesser and lesser.. sighness.. holidays.. faster comee.. but then again.. not much of fun also la i guess.. to me, holidays nowadays is something normal for me.. nothing to be happy about or excited about.. =( my brain's getting more and more confused nowadays.. he's tensed up too i know... that's why i am trying to avoid bothering him so much.. but will it affect anything between us? only God knows i guess.. sigh.. things don't always go the way we want them to be i guess.. if we're meant to be.. then whatever is happening now or whatever he is thinking now won't affect us.. =] just wished and prayed to God that he is blessed with great health and may happiness will always stay with him..bless my fellow friends too.. taking exams.. haihs.. not much time to study and i can still sit here and blog.. keng? xD

-afraid to loose u
-wake up and face reality
-don't be afraid and be strong
-God bless all of you
-felt so tired
-need a long rest
-need to get away from my life for a short while and clear my mind
-need some air; suffocated
-mind is all tangled up
-you would be happy always
-knowing what is on your mind
-everyone would be happy
-war stops
-etc etc...


我爱你 xing ni bu yao li kai.. teng wo.. cos wo hui teng ni te.. =] <3

hyper! x p

today i felt like blogging.. its only 6.46pm and i am here sitting in front of the computer not getting my homework done but well, blogging.. haha.. i have so many things to say! lol. i felt i don't really blog about myself lately..well, practically not my problems or anything.. just that i don't want some people to feel hurt after reading my post.. but what is my main purpose of blogging?? is to get update with my life right? so why care what others' may think.. i don't backstab. if anybody do feel i do.. then go ahead and tell me.. i think i can take it.. =]
ahhh.. so fast.. another month passed..its gonna be the 25th again.. <3
i know alerize.. u love it when i put <3 right? xD <3 <3 <3 ^^
i guess i will blog again tonight about my life more kua.. maybe next time.. see my mood ..=] chaoz

sleepover in pei ying's house!

okay, today is the very FIRST time i sleepover in someone's house.. i know.. i am very kuai.. =p
so today is a memorable day! 19 April 2008! =]]

this is the so called 'cool' picture! =p

this is me promoting pei ying's printer..haha! too sien de..=p

this is two of my best friends! =p
i like this picture! *smiles*

[joy+excitement+hyperness]+ur words=souless

haha..i know it doesn't makes sense! =] i am going crazy.. yeahh.. i admit.. nevermind.. i really dont care about anything anymore.. i've had it with my life.. seriously.. some people are like 'uhhh' and still.. haihss... i know my post does not makes sense.. nevermind.. =.='
i guess i will stop blogging for a period of time already. i mean, what's the point?? like it helps.. maybe for some of us.. but not all.. so back to my old lifestyle! everything keeps quiet and wah lah!~ nothing happened.. even better.. i tell out also didnt change anything in my life.. so no need la.. =] tragedies and drama and chaos and God knows what else is coming up for me.. i guess this month's horoscope is really true.. it says that i better prepared myself to face more and more stress that will somehow lead to depression.. nothing can stop it from coming.. so.. oh well.. guess thats all.. see ya'

tag

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. What are you craving now?


2. What was the last movie you've watched?
just like heaven.. i watched it again actually.. does that count?

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you?
umm.. none.. cos, i wouldn't want them to be stranded with me.

4. What are you most happy with now?
hmm~ i am luckier than 70% of the children around the globe?

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
to be...erm...i dunno... i think i'll want everyone to be happy.. its so sad seeing them sad.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yeahh..

7. Why are you wasting your time to do this?
its because i find it interesting?

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
abo! life is short...so why must we be afraid.. its not a crime to love someone..

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
hmm~ helpful, kind and sweet

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
well, i wish i could be better.. for everyone.. and myself of course.

11. Which type of person do you hate the most?
haha. i hate liars, wanna-be's and also pretenders..

12. What is your ambition?
to be.... i dont really know.. today i was asked by ze yin too..

13. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
depends on who i am finding faults with. *winks*

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
most important?? well, dont have.. everything that i treasure are equally important! Family, Friends and happiness(him)

15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
haha.. u think??

16. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you
erm.. she is EMO xD

17. What will you do when someone faints in front of you?
i would follow him/her and let other people worry about it. =]
haha.. call the ambulance ler..

18. What makes you different?
i am no different from others actually..

19. What am I eating now?
jellybeans.. =]

20. Why do I believe in fairy tales?
i believe in reality more.. fairy tales are sweet sometimes.. but it's not wrong to imagine at times..=]

i would tag....erm....i duno...lol...anyone feels like doing it just go ahead..=]

hmm, yesterday i went to my new add maths tuition.. the sir is a really awesome teacher! i am glad i have such an awesome teacher.. =]
one thing i hate about the tuition is......yeah, the girls from ***.. they're like super 'quiet'.. like they're outing or something.. =.='' terrible man.. but overall i guess it's ok.. =]
today i-lyn and guat phing gave me a necklace.. they bought it for me from malacca..or KL.. i dunno..haha! but still, how thoughtful of them.. oh yea and ze yin bought me something too! nice.. and it's green..=p thank u so muchie! go on a trip and still think of me and got me something.. *sniff sniff* xD now i am exaggerating.. =p
today i made a list of memorable things.. i scared that i can't remember them.. so i did.. =]] and i missed out some i reckon.. sure of it.. bad memories.. sigh~ must eat 'ginkgo' already.. xD
i want to buy a book and record everything inside! and put in some pictures too.. will do it when i got go out lar.. hehe.. i wish i had a camera.. on my own.. =( so that i can take all the memorable places.. and great people i've met throughout my whole life.. and keeping it.. hmm.. soon... hehe..i hope.. =]] and i think i must get a cdr-w and keep all my pictures inside.. or else later if my computer is taken to reformat, i am gonna break down and cry.. seriously... his computer already had it.. ze yin's also.. but luckily some of it she burnt them into 2cds earlier.. =]]
hmm~ i guess that's all for now.. relationships between my friends and i are ok in the mean time.. i hope and pray that we will remain and perhaps gets better! =]
mine and his is.....i dunno about it myself... ><> <3

doomed

dieeee......
i didn't touch any of my homework.. kuai le me?? =]
some more can online.. haha.. superb.. gonna go work like hell now.. =p
see ya!

loving him more and more each day..=]

queensbay with pei ying!

yep! i went to queensbay with pei ying today! hehe~ it was fun! except for the part where we waited for the bus though.. stupid bus don't know why din't come at all! waited from 4pm to 5.30pm. can u imagine that?? 1 and a half hour.. wasted.. grr.. at last her dad have to fetch us there.. will post some of the pictures soon.. it's with her.. hehe..

went to different different shops.. hehe.. most of the things i see there reminds me of 'us'.. haihs.. no matter where also can bring my mind to him.. its so.... i dunno.. i see stars bottle.. i see manga.. bleach.. extreme.. pig.. pooh.. tgi.. sushi.. bossini.. cinema.. god. is that almost everything? haha..

we walked everywhere.. fun fun! =] except the part where our feet hurts.. haha.. then in bus stop time piggy back pei ying.. *u are so light thats why..=p*

too tired to type de.. =( thats all for tonight.. =]

Mariah Carey-Without You

No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows
Yes, it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there but then I let you go
And now it's only fair that I should let you know
What you should know

I can't live
if living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
if living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore

Well I can't forget this evening
Nor your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows
Yes, it shows

I can't live
if living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
if living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
(No I cant live)
(No I cant live)
I cant live
(No I cant live)
(No I cant live)
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
Can't live..

unbreak my heart

Unbreak My Heart

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart

Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry this tears
I cried so many, many nights
Un-break my

Un-break my heart oh baby
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on

can't go on

i love you
never change...don't think of me that way please..----> <3

could things get worse?

well.. i hope things are getting better for everyone of us..
why he act as if he doesn't even care about me? haihs.. most of the time message also he's like so pissed.. i think i should stop texting him.. maybe he's sick of me texting him everytime? i dunno already.. so confused about everything.. i wish someone could lecture me.. every principles of life that i should know.. not sitting here sighing and knowing exactly nothing.. i just wish that i could read people's mind.. seriously.. it's so hard to be someone else's friend. what does it takes to be a good friend? friend as in many ways.. friends 'friend' or family's friend.. or love friend.. ahh~ i don't think anyone would understand what am i talking about.. crapness*
nevermind that.. all these while i've been trying so hard.. to be better.. but i guess.. i should have let him have more freedom ler.. *i know u are going to say i am making more assumptions* =]
hmmm~ lets see.. went to school today.. i-lyn, guat phing, ze yin and kim mei went to KL already.. and quite a number of students are absent.. so the class is kinda empty.. tomorrow gonna go to either gurney or queensbay with pei ying and cynthia.. as we are the 'kuai' ones staying in penang.. xD and i am so gonna fail add maths again in my next test!! if i don't buckle up now.. i am doomed.. =( sad rightt?? i am so stupid! lol..

some people just don't appreciate what they're having in their life ya know? for instance, parents whom are too controlling?? try to be in their shoes before saying it le k.. i mean, they care for us thats why they're concerning about us rightt. or else, why they even bother to care? too free ah you think? hell, no. there are even parents more strict than your own ones k.. so stop complaining and and all u freaking care is your THE ONE. hmm. i don't mean to say it's wrong u know? just that, dunno la.. how the heart feels and how the brain thinks of it. lol
balance is the best.. hehe..

14 days more to go..should i be happy? sad? nervous? scared? i have no idea.. maybe its a bad idea after all.. maybe he hopes that that day won't come? is he excited??? *no idea* assumptions.again. oh well.. tata`

Amazed-Trademark

Everytime our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

Chorus:
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark (ooh yeah)
Your hair all around me, baby you surround me
You touch everyplace in my heart
Oh it feels like the first time everytime
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes

Chorus

I'm amazed by you, yeah

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
[Repeat]

Every little thing that you do
Every little thing that you do

Baby, I'm amazed by you

it's hard to forget someone u love.. yet u know u cant be with them.. why don't u pray? maybe some day she would change her mind le? dun sad de yea.. u know who u are.. =]
i'll still be here for you no matter what.. and i don't hate u ..lolx x]]

songs!

yeahh.. today i am just gonna express my feelings out through these amazing songs.. =]

Bryan Adams-Please Forgive Me

still feels like our first night together
feels like the first kiss and it's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
still holdin' on, you're still the one
first time our eyes met -  the same feeling I get
Only feels much stronger - I wanna love you longer
You still turn the fire on…
So if you're feelin' lonely don't
You're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me - I know not what I do
Please forgive me - I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me - this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need ya like I do
Please believe me - every word I say is true
Please forgive me - I can't stop loving you

Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough
I'm still holdin' on - you're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves - I remember you yeah
I remember the night - you know I still do
So if you're feelin' lonely don't
You're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love you a little more than I should

Please forgive me - I know not what I do
Please forgive me - I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me - this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need ya like I do
Oh believe me - every word I say is true
Please forgive me - I can't stop loving you

One thing I'm sure of - is the way we make love
The one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'…

Please forgive me - I know not what I do
Please forgive me - I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me - this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need you like I do
Babe believe me-every word i say is true
Please forgive me - If I can´t stop loving you
Never leave me-I don't know what I do
Please forgive me- I Can´t stop loving you

Can't stop loving you

april fool!

yeah.. today is april fool.. not so fun also eh this year's april fool.. i didnt fool anyone i think.. see i am sooo angelic? =p
in school, yeogeash did something to mr.lee and he almost gave her a 9 dimerits! just a very small incident nia.. okay, here goes;
yeogeash: sir, your shoelace is untied la sir.
sir: *looked down*
yeogeash: april fool!
sir: i wasn't looking at my shoe, i was looking at the floor. =.='

so stupid right? haha.. and and.. we all thought yeogeash gave him the envelope! that one maybe la.. 9 dimerits only make sense.. hehe..

this sunday went to 'cheng beng'.. the weather is so 'cold' man.. i wonder why people wanna follow the crowd all go at the same time till traffic jam.. and its not fun at all.. =( but what to do.. its good.. haha.. my uncle gave me angpao somemore k.. so its good.. =p

i want to talk about this. though its real sensitive.. but oh well..
see, some people just don't get it u see.. they just think that whatever they're doing is right. well, different people have different points of view.. that i agree.. but sometimes, they would just judge things without even knowing the root to it. and sometimes people have a different point of view of 'backstabbing' too.. to me, its just, talking behind some one else's back without their knowledge and gang up with those whom hate them and fucking shooting that particular person with god knows what kinda usage of words used. sometimes people saying things behind some one else's back but it isnt call backstabbing.. well.. to me only maybe.. its like, maybe yeah saying bad things but its not practically didn't care for that person's feeling k.. its like, agreeing with someone else's that its a negative attitude for one to do so.. so people would just want that him/her to understand it and make it as a life lesson.. learn from it than just whooping around thinking negatively; he/she backstabbed me! oh i freaking hate that bitch! he/she is effin two-faced. something like that.. maybe this thing is sensitive thats why nobody is willing to speak out the truth. to that person they're talking about. it's not that easy k.. it might hurt one's feeling and this can leads to arguements.. like what i said earlier in my earlier post if u ever read. hmm~ worse still, arguements are still ok.. what if fights? and and here goes the 'i don't need a friend like u anymore!' that sort of thing.. yeah.. why am i saying this?? it's because i admit i might be a bad person doing it.. i admit.. so what?? like what the hell?? who doesn't? don't freakin' act as innocent and angelic as u are and then not thinking of how would other's feel when U say about that particular person?? come on.. feelings do tell.. if u don't like this feeling, then stop doing it to others. thats what i gotta say.. hope that its not too harsh nor offensive.. this doesn't mean i am hating those who do this to me.. i never hate these people.. its because, we're all humans.. we can't help feeling this way right?? so think about it. and i am saying because i care.. if not, why would i waste my time even bother talking about it?? caring for it?? i rather use my time go and do something else right?? like chit chatting..gossipping.. etc etc.. thats all i can say ler.. if u people still don't get it then u can come to me personally.. i won't offend u seriously.. someone has to do it somehow.. or as i say, it will lead to arguements, etc... and by that time, its too late.. but its never to late to be sorry.. anyways, i dont seems to bother so much now.. i am also used to it already.. i wonder why some people just like to act in front of other people just because u want to get attention; or or make that someone likes u.. its so damn unnatural.. but if thats the way u are then i cant shut up.. but its not.. people do change i know.. i guess i just need to get used to it and accept it as a part of life! =]

today has been kinda bad.. and i salute myself for it.. haha! first time didn't message 'him' the whole day.. its really hard though but i want to see if he would even think to message me? its weird huh how things come and go sometimes.. when u have it, u don't care to say hi. but when u lose it.. its hard to say goodbye.. thats life.. haha.. so many principles in life man.. i am learning.. u are learning.. everyone is learning.. so its ok for us to make mistakes sometimes.. we just ought to learn from it.. and i am willing to forgive anyone now.. haha.. cause it seems like nothing to me ler.. unless u really do something that i cannot obviously forgive.. then its biggie.. =p
18th of april faster come! =] <3>

Mariah Carey-I Still Believe

You look in my eyes
And I get emotional inside
I know it's crazy
But you still can touch my heart
And after all this time
You'd think that I
Wouldn't feel the same
But time melts into nothing
And nothing's changed

CHORUS:
I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again
I have a dream
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again

Each day of my life
I'm filled with all the joy I could find
You know that I
I'm not the desperate type
If theres one spark of hope
Left in my grasp
I'll be holding it with both hands
It's worth the risk of burning
To have a second chance

No, no, no, no, no, no
I need you baby
I still believe that we can be together
If we believe that true love never has to end
Then we must know that we will love again

CHORUS (x2)
I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again
I had a dream
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again

and by the way ze, although i like emo rated songs, i am not as emo as u are! =p