could things get worse?

well.. i hope things are getting better for everyone of us..
why he act as if he doesn't even care about me? haihs.. most of the time message also he's like so pissed.. i think i should stop texting him.. maybe he's sick of me texting him everytime? i dunno already.. so confused about everything.. i wish someone could lecture me.. every principles of life that i should know.. not sitting here sighing and knowing exactly nothing.. i just wish that i could read people's mind.. seriously.. it's so hard to be someone else's friend. what does it takes to be a good friend? friend as in many ways.. friends 'friend' or family's friend.. or love friend.. ahh~ i don't think anyone would understand what am i talking about.. crapness*
nevermind that.. all these while i've been trying so hard.. to be better.. but i guess.. i should have let him have more freedom ler.. *i know u are going to say i am making more assumptions* =]
hmmm~ lets see.. went to school today.. i-lyn, guat phing, ze yin and kim mei went to KL already.. and quite a number of students are absent.. so the class is kinda empty.. tomorrow gonna go to either gurney or queensbay with pei ying and cynthia.. as we are the 'kuai' ones staying in penang.. xD and i am so gonna fail add maths again in my next test!! if i don't buckle up now.. i am doomed.. =( sad rightt?? i am so stupid! lol..

some people just don't appreciate what they're having in their life ya know? for instance, parents whom are too controlling?? try to be in their shoes before saying it le k.. i mean, they care for us thats why they're concerning about us rightt. or else, why they even bother to care? too free ah you think? hell, no. there are even parents more strict than your own ones k.. so stop complaining and and all u freaking care is your THE ONE. hmm. i don't mean to say it's wrong u know? just that, dunno la.. how the heart feels and how the brain thinks of it. lol
balance is the best.. hehe..

14 days more to go..should i be happy? sad? nervous? scared? i have no idea.. maybe its a bad idea after all.. maybe he hopes that that day won't come? is he excited??? *no idea* assumptions.again. oh well.. tata`